Fate?

you guys should have know me long enough to tell i will go all soft when i hear ballads and i might be even moved to tears...so yeah i'm having a taste of all the really nice korean ballads...i love them! esp in the night when you're all alone...i'm on earphones listening to the voices that make my heart melt...it makes me feel not so far from home somehow...i still do the things i love here...it's been only almost 1 month...i have 9 more to go...i don't know what the future holds and i'm worried...sounds philosophical but it's true...i do feel fear on what is to come...the missing my family thing is starting to get to me...i do miss them...as much as i miss everyone back in Malaysia...it feels empty here...you're not home...you're an outsider...people here are scary...they go crazy partying and start doing crazy stuff...i'm worried about safety already and it's only been a month...these ballads really tone down whatever emotions i have and calms me down...

i've never blogged about this story...it makes me sad to think of it...maybe all the psychology theory on dreams can be put to good use on this one. That day i had a nap and i had a dream that i was talking to my mom and after that i just told her naturally that i'll see her at home and hung up. I then woke up and suddenly realised i wasn't in my room. I was away from home and i forgot for that moment when i woke up only to realise it after and feel a sense of loss...sigh...maybe i do miss my mom deep inside that's why i would dream about her...

anyway, i love K.Will man...OMG such a nice voice hahaha...and Hwang Bo's ballad shocked me too...more ballads please!